Honestly, I'd rather lie.

I have a confession to make. I haven't posted on my blog, and it's no one's fault but my own. I know, I lead a busy and hectic life, but that's hardly an excuse. In all reality, it's been for one simple reason. I started this blog knowing that it would have to get personal. I knew I would be talking about things I'd rather keep inside, instead of spewing them across the internet. And that meant doing this post. It's not easy, and it's scary, but it must be done.

Here goes. Hi, my name is Kyle. I'm a gay man. And I'm a coward.

I don't say that to be self-deprecating, although Lord knows I can be at times. It's just that... I've been out of the closet for almost 8 years now. And I don't count from when I first told one of my friends. I count from when I told my parents. So, it's not exactly new news. And those of you I force to read this blog (all of my readers) of course already knew. So, why did it take me so long to admit it on here?

I can sum up my hang ups about being out with two words: my brother. He's 12 years younger than me and he's my entire world. Most people know I treat him more like a son than I do a brother. And he's the one person who doesn't know his big brother is homosexual. He's met gay friends of mine, one of them transgendered, and been nothing but excepting. But I know that if I told that little man the truth and he reacted badly it would kill me. I know I wouldn't be strong enough to handle it. But, I know it'll have to come some time.

I count this post as the first stepping stone. From here on out, this blog will hopefully be funny, educational, and above all, open and honest. If I could get over my fear of putting my business on the web for the whole world to see, maybe I'll soon muster up the strength to tell him. And maybe it'll turn out just fine.

If it does, I'll have a confession or two about overcoming your worrying ways.